If It Kills Me

It's strange for me to think about the people I used to be close to. There was a time when listening to "If It Kills Me" in the car with that boy made me happier than anything else did. He made me feel beautiful, and I had no idea I could feel that way. He introduced me to a lot of different ways of feeling, actually. I felt validated and grown up and loved and heartbroken and crazy. But he made me feel needed and he taught me that no one will ever really change. It was not a waste no matter what it was. I just wish I still knew him, that I still talked to him. Everyone is in your life for a reason, sometimes it's hard to tell when they're not supposed to be in your life anymore.